Dear you,
It's quite weird. I have suddenly developed a rather severe case of anxiety. It is weird, because most people would not say that I would seem like I have anxiety, but I do. Quite a bad case of it, too. I literally cannot speak to people on the phone. I feel as if I am about to fall of a cliff and into the black abyss when I do. Which, you know, is not a feeling that I particularly want to nurture.
This all came to light when I called the driving place to schedule my last two driving lessons. I just need to get them out of the way, so I can focus on other things and learn how to drive stick without worrying about lessons. I feel quite bad about not having my license. My elder brother doesn't help matters in the slightest. He guilts me into feeling horrible about myself for not having my license. Well sorry for having other things to do! Sorry for having other things to worry about! My god.
He means well, I swear he does. But he is also the person who doesn't think that my head condition is a real thing when I am incapacitated every single day. He's not the most understanding type.
It's weird having him home. I don't know if I like it or not. Whatever the case, he's here till the end of January. Best get used to him, I suppose.
Deep sigh.
Best wishes,
Me
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